I know what you mean. I don’t feel unbalanced, but I do feel disturbed and like I was born in the wrong place at the wrong time, or that I should be on another world entirely. I still love looking at the stars, when I finally get out of the city into the countryside far enough away to see them the way they should be seen. As far as “turning our eyes into the inner realms of our complex being” goes, I know for a fact the answer is very simple. We are human hybrid remnants carrying the genes of the nephilim, the angels that were cast down to Earth when Lucifer was defeated. So…complex beings? Very much so. But I already turned my eyes inward long ago and learned that truth.